First, however, let me tell you what the reason is Most people, upon hearing my story, decide (regardless of their own spiritual beliefs or religious affiliations) that I must be mad at God.
They tell me I just had the wrong religion, or that I just needed to try their particular name-brand.
When something doesn’t exist, you can make any number of arguments in its favor, and to the believing mind answers can come easily because any answer can easily fit.
If you ask me to do something and I don’t do it, I can make up an excuse or give you the facts as to why I didn’t, but in the end there . ” Yes, but your god still killed 70,000 people with pestilence just because their king counted them.
This is like turning around to sit down on a chair when you never actually verified that the chair was there in the first place.
The worst part about it is that, instead of a slightly bruised bottom, you come out of it with an entire life wasted trying to sit in a chair that isn’t there.
Anyone else who claimed to know their religion was true deep in their heart was clearly suffering a Satanic delusion.
At the exact same time, I believed a clearly mythological story with blind faith and nothing more to back it up than the fact that I knew deep in my heart that it was true.
If I were not praying for what God would want me to pray for, the answer would undoubtedly be no, but if I were asking in faith for something that lined up with God’s will, I would be rewarded.
It made me wonder why it was God’s will that certain of my colleagues drove a Mercedes while he wanted me to drive a pale yellow 1988 station wagon. unless of course for the 100% rate of failure for such requests as healing an amputee or “moving a mountain.” God Can’t Be Proven: I used to say to the doubters “You can’t disprove God!
It was because of this that I began to take my studies of the Judeo-Christian god very seriously, and it was in-depth study and reflection that led to my current state of unbelief.